I started this blog when I was in the midst of our infertility struggle. I started it as a place to express my emotions, to share my journey with others who might be going through their own struggles, and to keep myself accountable to trust in God, even in the hard times.
I have been blessed to hear from several friends and other individuals who have read this blog, and it warms my heart to hear that our journey has been helpful or uplifting to others as they also learn to trust through their own hard times. If God can use my story to help others, I feel incredibly blessed to be a part of that.
Today things are different. Today I am holding the most precious and sweet 3-month-old baby girl in my arms, and I can't believe I am actually here. Although my infertility story has a happy ending (for now), this is also a time of beginnings. And you know what? I am still working hard on the "learning to trust" thing.
Apparently parenting is difficult! (Why didn't someone warn me? Oh wait, I think everyone did!) Parenting while one parent is in grad school is tricky. Living 500 miles away from family and friends is hard, but once you have a baby it gets much harder! And being married to a future pastor with no idea where you'll be living in a few years, well, if that isn't an exercise in trust, I don't know what is! I am realizing more and more that trusting God is not a skill that I am going to master, but a habit that I have to practice daily to maintain. And there is no way I can do that without God's help.
I honestly don't know where I am going with this blog, but although I have learned a lot and grown a lot of over the past few years, I know there is always more to learn and grow in. I want to continue to write about trusting God through the daily struggles of life. I will probably still write about infertility, because that will always be a part of my story and I feel passionately that we need to talk about it more and be more aware of couples going through it. But I will also start writing about other topics related to faith, family, and trusting God.
That is, if this sweet little girl in my arms gives me time!
